Yup... that's how it feels here being stuck at this desk after my 4 hour shift just came to an end. No lunch for me... nope... and I'm STARVED right now! On top of it I have a headache and am extremely tired. Great start to the day, huh??? My shift went well... but it's been downhill the last hour.
I guess you could just say I don't deal wtih unexpected changes well at all... that's really the only way to put it. Because if I did... I wouldn't feel like this at this moment. Oh... I'd still have the headache. I had it already before the end of my shift. However, I wouldn't feel this angry and trapped in this seat if I came to grips with the fact that it was out of my control and that change, good or bad, is not only possible at every single moment of every single day... but it's INEVITABLE!!!
Why do we tend to buck change as humans??? There are many reasons for this in my opinion. I have several of my own at least. My worst one is having my planned routine fucked up. There really is no solution to it. That's why it's so frustrating. You can't plan for something that you don't know is coming... that just might have a 1 in 10 chance of happening. It's just not possible, so the unexpected is going to be just that... UNEXPECTED!
Oh you'll hear people say... embrace change! Why??? Some changes... sure they can be not only embraced, but welcomed! Sitting here right now is not one of those, though. What's to embrace about sitting hungry when you had your entire meal planned out only to find that you now have to wait at least another hour in order to go eat.
I wouldn't care if I didn't plan on working out later... but now the time I eat and the time I planned to work out are going to be too close together. I need at least 2 hours in between... and now I won't have that... which means cramps during my run... etc. Not good! Oh believe me I'm still going to try and do it. It just might not go as well as I had hoped for. As long as I don't puke I'll be happy. :)
Anyway... sometimes you just have to vent and rant... so this is my means to do so. It's a lot better than keeping these negative feelings inside. That's for sure!
Hopefully, I will feel better later today and will have something positive to write about. For now... I have nothing else... especially since I already fell off the treadmill yesterday at 7.0 mph and tore up my legs. This is an awesome week so far isn't it??? NOT!!!! Until later...
Peace, Love, and Poker
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