I'm having those damn midweek blues again!

It's true... as much as I try not to let the negativity creep in it still happens once in awhile.  Today is one of those times.  I didn't sleep all that well last night... I felt like I was awake a lot through the night though it was probably only a minute or two at a time.  It was a good day yesterday, but as you can see in my blog post from yesterday I received some bad news.  That also has something to do with my feeling down right now. 

I'm thinking about a lot today... especially where I'm going to live when I get back.  It has to be something nice for both myself and Anne Marie, and it needs to be pet friendly.  I also have certain amenities that I want, and I'm not going to be happy if I can't have them.  I want a pool/spa and a fitness center for sure... along with a washer/dryer and a  dishwasher.  Those are things I'm used to having, and I've been willing to pay the extra rent for a nice enough place to have those things.  Now... if I'm forced to rent a HOUSE I won't have any of those except maybe the dishwasher, and I'll have to PURCHASE my own washer and dryer.  UGH! 

I am also considering giving up my 2 cats at this point as well.  It is an extremely sad thought, but if that's what it takes in order to be able to move into the kind of place I want to live in then I guess I will have to do just that.  I'm pretty sure they would have a good home... provided the people they are staying with would want to keep them.  :(  That is my last resort, however, and I also know Anne Marie would be so very upset as well.  We love all 4 of our pets very very much. 

So it is this Wednesday morning that I'm feeling quite a bit of stress over what's going to happen when I get home from here.  How ironic, huh?  The one thing you look forward to the most is turning out to be the most stressful thing in the near future.  I will continue my search, however, and I won't give up until I've exhausted the many possibilities that are still out there!  Until then... I'm going to do my best to keep my chin up...

Peace, Love, and Poker