'Tis true!!! It's now December! WOW! Each day/week/month that passes feels a little more surreal than the previous one. I feel like I JUST had my day off. That was 4 days ago already! After today and the next 2 I will be off again, and 13 weeks will have passed. So this Saturday what can I do that's "different" than what I've done on the others??? Last Saturday and the one before it I went to movies. That was different. There aren't any movies that I want to see per se this week, so I may not make the long trek to that part of the base this time around. That leaves other options open. There is always the USO... the internet is super fast over there, and they have food, but I've already done that before. If I do make the long trek it will be to Ciano's (Italian restaurant) to get either pizza or a calzone. Yes, I know, I've done that before as well, but it's just sooooooooo damn good! :) I have gotten up at 8 and gone for an omelet every morning so far. I suppose I could play poker Friday night this week and sleep later Saturday. Hmmm... I sure do like my omelets, though! I will definitely still be doing my laundry. That part will be the same. I have yet to work out on my day off once. Perhaps I will do that this time around. Even in Iraq there are decisions to be made! Isn't it ironic that volunteer work hasn't come to mind at all for me, though? Others have done plenty of that... some a little... but I've done none. I've yet to find something that I truly WANT to do in that department, and my time off is so little and so precious that I haven't been willing to give any of that up. It's highly unlikely that will change. I just feel like that's the only time here that's truly mine if that makes sense. Everyone needs to take care of themselves even if it does seem and/or sound selfish. When you work close to 70 hours a week you NEED that down time to unwind and release the stress.
I have not been extremely stressed out so far in my 3 months here aside from a time or two... which over the course of 85 days isn't all that bad. I'm feeling a little stressed today actually simply because of where I'm stuck at the moment. I am sitting in the command post as our Battle Staff Commander because it's the regular guy's day off. There are 4 of us who take turns at the position (actually 5 because our Chief sits here, too.), but it is looking like I may lose out on my planned workout time today, which is really going to piss me right the fuck off. We worked out a schedule for this last week... and it worked... but it is dependent on our Chief being here to sit the lunch hour, and he might be late, which throws a monkey wrench into everything. You see... I have to be on shift at 3 so I need to be able to work out AND eat lunch during the time in between 1130 and then. If I don't get out of here until noon or later I get fucked. This is what happened to me 2 or 3 weeks ago when I went and found someone to talk to because I was so stressed and upset, and the feeling is coming over me right now as I type like a shit storm. I know I tend to let things bother me more than I should, but damn it I'm trying to stick to a schedule and a routine here, and if I don't work out then I gain weight. If I gain weight then I get in trouble with my PT for the AF, and once that happens it's all downhill from there. So, as you can see, every single time I see myself losing my workout time it is a huge stress event for me. I hate Wednesdays here... it's the only day of the week I truly hate, too. *sigh*
Anyway... things are still great otherwise. It's just one of those things I suppose. Be flexible... BLAH BLAH BLAH. The whole bullshit line you get fed gets old. It's just the military's way of saying, "We own you... we will always own you... and you will do what we want you to when we want you to do it." That's just the way it goes, and I'm VERY glad I only have to deal with it for another 22 months or so! That's definitely the light at the end of the tunnel right there! :)
So... I should be back to my normal self by this time tomorrow... if not later on today. That's usually how it goes. Once I get out on scope doing the job I typically forget about it all anyway. Then another day will be over and done with, and I can move on to Thursday. :)
Peace, Love, and Poker
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