As another week begins here in Iraq I think about how every day feels very much the same. I ponder what I can do while I'm here to make it a little different or "shake things up" a bit. There are no days off... so that makes it difficult. I want to take a couple classes while I'm here for sure, but I have yet to find the motivation to physically seek them out or research which schools will best suit my Boise State degree program. I guess it's tough when you spend the majority of your life at work or asleep here. There really is a small window of "free time" not spent doing one of those two things along with eating and working out. About 3 hours to be exact... and sometimes that only results in a 6 hour night of sleep. Do I even have the energy or the will to mess with school right now? I'm not really sure. Perhaps as things continue to normalize here that will change, but for now I don't feel that desire or passion for it that I do when I'm home in Idaho.
I'm still dealing with the same issue from yesterday's post, too. I don't know where that's going to go right now. I would hope that something so stupid doesn't continue to snowball in our relationship. I'd like to think we're stronger than that. So... I suppose I should just be a recluse and have no contact with anyone other than my spouse while I'm here. That's what I gather from the whole thing. Of course, I refuse to do that... which means that I am then hiding it... which is even worse. I don't want to feel like I have to hide things... especially friendships... regardless of whether they are online or otherwise. I would not expect her to not have friends... regardless of gender. I just hope that through our daily talks we can get past it and back to where we were a couple days ago.
I am going to motivate myself to get some pictures on here from my laptop... soon. I also want to have my roommate take a few new ones of me with my camera for a number of reasons. I like to have up to date pics on my pages... and for my wife and friends to see as well. I hope to include a little bit of the desert environment in them, too! It's not every day you see sand and rocks everywhere. The downfall is... it's almost October and it hit a blazing 115 here yesterday! That is unfathomable to me! It was just so ridiculously hot. I keep waiting for it to drop, and the heat continues to push on day after day.
I tried my hand at the treadmill yesterday for the first time in years. Historically any time spent on the treadmill has made me dizzy. Yesterday was no different, but I managed. I think maybe if I can get my body used to it I may be able to beat that dizziness thing! I walked for 40 minutes on it... at an 8.0 incline for the first 35 minutes prior to cooling down. Not a bad workout at all. I intend to try it again this afternoon. I might even add a little running in there today... without the incline, though. :) If I can do that... I can really push my workouts up in intensity.
So here I sit in the usual spot before taking my seat for my 4 hour shift on scope... pondering what the remainder of the day holds... that might be slightly different than the last. At the moment I have no idea... but I know it won't happen on accident. If I want it to be different... I need to be the one to make that happen. Nobody else can do that for me. And so I shall do my best to ensure that happens!
Peace, Love, and Poker. :)
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